"I had my AuraTransformation just over a year ago now and it has certainly been a journey filled full of ups and downs! I met Sarah back in 2012 and it seems like a lifetime away now. I was fully emerged in a long standing cycle of substance dependence. I was 14 years old when I started smoking cannabis and drinking. From there the drug use between me and my peers escalated. I grew up in a cycle of abusing myself with drugs and drinking and as I got older the cycle became even harder to break.
In the summer of 2012 my mother passed away and if anything that threw me into turmoil even more with my drug use. I thought I would never be able to see the light again. Sarah mentioned AuraTransformation to me at the beginning of 2014 and I was very intrigued. I always have had an open mind to these kind of things and was certainly inspired and interested by what she was talking about. It was only when I started to speak to her about how I was feeling and what was going on in my life at the time that she insisted I see a therapist before the AT. On reflection now I can see that the pain that I was feeling at that time was the grief from losing my mother. I thought I'd got over her death but I hadn't at all. I just covered up the grief with drugs, drink and women.
I didn’t go to see a therapist until after I tried to take my life in April 2014. This episode was a speed, cannabis and alcohol induced psychosis in which I thought all my best friends in the entire world were plotting against me and planning to kill me. My answer to this was to kill myself first. I took an attempted overdose of aspirin and paracetamol. I thought I had taken enough to end my life. I broke into my old house in my hometown. Where there were still things there from when I left and the memories of my mother were more apparent than ever. I took the pills, laid down on my old bed with the sheets over me and thought that would be it. Amazingly it wasn't and somehow I managed to escape death. I was left with no internal injuries or any physical health problems but the psychosis continued.
The psychosis lasted around a month, during which time my Aunt took me in and moved me into her house in London. It only subdued when I spoke to my Father about all of the demons that were plaguing me. Finally I went to see a brilliant therapist. He helped me to address the passing of my mother and many other issues that I carried around for so many years. It was only after six months of therapy that Sarah would allow me to have the AuraTransformation. Her priority was my safety and wellbeing and I’m eternally grateful for that.
After the treatment was done I felt great! I remember at the time feeling so fresh and updated. I didn’t want to smoke or drink at all! I traveled to Thailand not long afterwards to train Thai Boxing (something I had wanted to do for years!) I had such an amazing time and planned to go back following my return to London. Unfortunately I was still living with my Aunt at the time and she talked me out of it.
So nine months went on in London and during this time I became depressed again. I found sanctuary in the things I’d always ran to. Drugs, drinking and women. It was only when the girl I was seeing at the time decided to end things between us that I decided that I had to pull my head out of my arse and fully reassess my life.
Around the same time one of my friends passed away. He had taken an overdose much the same as I had but he wasn’t lucky enough to be given a second chance here on Earth. Throughout that month I was extremely depressed. I would sit at home drinking, eating junk and watching MMA/Muay Thai/Boxing online. I felt like a shell of a human every night and even worse in the morning.
Throughout all of this I would call on Sarah for help and support much like I had done ever since our first meeting in 2012. I always looked at her as my fairy godmother. And she always would give me very balanced and insightful advice.
Finally I booked my ticket and said my goodbyes. Now I'm back in Thailand training at the same Muay Thai School that I trained at before. And part of me feels like I'm home. I feel happy! Truly happy for the first time in a long time. My life is structured through training hard every day pushing myself beyond any physical or mental boundaries.
I'm here now for six months. I do not know if I will return to the UK. If I do it will be on my own terms. I have a return flight booked but that doesn't necessarily mean that I will take it. I guess that brings us back to the AuraTransformation (that’s what this piece of writing is meant to be about after all!).
At first I have to say I was slightly underwhelmed. But now as I reflect on how far I've come in this last year and how I used to be (not as in my habits but how my general outlook on life was) I've changed hugely. I used to be incredibly anxious about everything. Even the slightest thing I would go to the doctors to check that I was alright. I also used to care a lot more about what people thought of me. And now I just do me and don’t really care what other people think. They have their life and I have mine.
The AT has slowly helped me to break my ego down. I feel that when we can truly let go of our ego only then are we one step further on our path of enlightenment. My self-development through Martial Arts has helped me no end. And the AuraTransformation has given me an upgrade. An extra layer of protection, if you will, that is with me everywhere I go. I still battle with my demons and probably will do for years but the AT has helped me shed my old skin and develop my wings that were held back before.